A title is for a thing like this

Hey. Gonna try to be more regular with my blogging from now on. I also need to set up another blog so I can say what I really wanna say.

SO anyway...... Lynda was up for the weekend. It was okay but I was away for most of it and asleep for some of the rest. I'm not to bothered though cos I never really get to see her. I'm also not one of those people that finds a connection with their family so I don't feel that want/need to see them. Quite truthfully I hate my family, so far they have been nothing but a nuiscance. I won't go into the details but lets just say that they are all users and takers......never givers. I tend to place all that extra stuff onto friends instead although to tell the truth they aint been 2 good either recently.

Most of them have been okay but a few of them, and not just one like most of you will be thinking, have been putting me through it recently. I really would't have minded or cared to much if it had just been the one of them but a few of them went abit cold water on me and left me feeling like the last cheerio floating around the bowl. I've talked to some of them and they sorted it out but I'm still gonna feel bad for an extra week or so. So i probably won't talk to them for abit.....just so that i can get over the uneasyness. I don't appretiate being told to get a grip of myself especially after what i have been through. I'd like to seem them not to be a wreck after that. And what i'm going through now as well. I'm being abit cryptic i know but they are a few things that i don't trust anyone with.

Jumping from one thing to another like a rat from a burning ship.........One thing that has come to the forefront of my mind recently was me going away for a holiday some time. I havnt decided where yet but I know i want to get very far away to a place where i can have a new start just for a week or so.

I just remembered what my old plan was for when I'd left school. I had planned to just pack up and leave and go somewhere else. I'd saved up almost £700 but in the end i just gave up. I knew that a completely new start would have been to much for me.......that and the fact that i wouldn't have been able to do much with £700. So i just poured all that money into stuff i wanted and amused myself with the new stuff.

Oh well.......gonna have a snooze for abit. All this making up and doing nothing has me beat.