I Don't Know What to Call This

Just listened to "Rock Lobster" by B-52's. For the most part I hate it. The only parts I like are the begining bit when it gets repeated and the bit where they say everyone was wearing matching towels..............dear GOD I am so bored. I finished the college work that was meant to last me an entire week in an hour, filed my nails so that they don't feel bad on the clients head when I am washing their hair, Tweezed the unsightly hairs from my face and left the nice ones and many other things. I don't think I am gonna last long with this making myself stay in ma larkey *pretends its his choice*. Oh dear...... I just refered to myself in the third person then.....or does that one pass as okay?

Right now I am listening to "Wind" by Akeboshi. Its sang in english but it has an anime sound to it. Its quite quickly reached the group of the feel good/ feel bad songs. They are the ones which either make you cry or make you wanna dance around like a loon on loony juice. Recently its just fitted in with my moods so well so its been a regular on WMP.

A list of songs that I have fallen in and out of love with are.....;

Wind by Akeboshi (in)
Be yourself by Audioslave (in)
Romeo by Basement Jaxx (out)
King of The Dancehall by Beenie Man (in)
Everytime by Britney (in)
Trouble by Coldplay (in)
Down With The Sickness by Disturbed (in)
Don't Let Go by En Vogue (in)
Call On Me by Eric Prydz (out)
Going Under By Evanescence(in)
Nothing Else Matters by Metallica (in)

As you can seem there are alot of ins and only a few outs.......thats because its preety much all of the others that I hate right now and rather than type loads I found it easier just to type my most faves of this moment.

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I just got ignored........... that was nice. I don't feel hurt in the slightest. Why in the world would I have cause to be paranoid. Oh no......if I was then its all MY fault. God somethimes I just feel that thw whole world isn't worth my time. I'm starting to agree with the emos right now.......... life is shit and we are all just corpses from the day we are born. Just shuffling around dying and living at the same time till eventually, one way or another, dying overtakes living and you just cease.

My god you'd think I had gone out and stabbed someone or pushed someone to suicide the way the people I've talked to today have treated me. The exceptions so far are Fish and Charlie but the rest of you can go fuck yourselves.

For a few others that are reading this I am only being so bitchy about them because I know they don't read this.....and because I don't really mean it. I never mean the mean things I say. The are just hollow and empty words which carry nothing but a brief bit of charged emotion in them.

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One thing that I know I would really like would for a psychologist to read my blogs and give me an analysis of whateva they find out and stuff.


NOTE: I'm only Bitchy cos I'm tired and I'm listening to depressing music right now.